Out of sorts

I found out over the weekend that my college class has been cancelled.  There were only 1-2 people registered for it all summer, so it wasn't a huge surprise, but it feels like it's knocked me off balance.  I should be going crazy getting ready for the academic year, but here I am feeling almost bored without the college work to do.  Don't get me wrong, there are plenty of things I could be doing with my time, but I just...feel out of sorts.  I'm sad that the class isn't going to happen, and I hope it happens again in the spring, but what if it doesn't?  I was betting on that income coming in so that I could use it for XYZ.  Now I don't have it so I'll have to plan other ways to get to XYZ.  The husband keeps saying it's not a big deal, I'll survive without the class and money, but I still feel like a total slacker and unemployed dolt.  I have my private studio, and taking care of the girls is important, but...well, I just feel useless and slightly worthless.

Sigh.  Time to figure out what projects to take care of with my extra time.