Yesterday morning, the girls were playing around in E's room while I tried to get them dressed, brush their hair, etc. like we always do in the mornings. E was looking for a good chase from me, so I went to go after her and grabbed her from behind so she couldn't escape. She swung around (due to me grabbing her) and klonked her face right against the arm of her rocking chair. Oh, the crying. Oh, the tears. Oh, the horrible guilt Mommy felt for having caused her baby so much pain so early in the morning. After E finally calmed down, I look at her poor face and saw red lines. Those red lines turned into purple bruises as the day wore on. Thanks to Mommy, she now sports a purple line under her right eye and another across the bridge of her nose. I feel SO. INCREDIBLY. BAD. for this. My poor child! All I want to do is hug her, kiss her, and hold her until all my love makes those bruises and pain go away. I know she won't remember this someday, and I know she'll be okay, but I can't help feeling so bad for her. If only I hadn't [insert all sorts of guilt-tinged actions here]! Poor poor child!!!!
MOMMY GUILT IS THE WORST THING EVER!
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